Yah Right…A Gift From Cancer?
Cancer sucks right? It’s scary, it’s terrible and it takes lives. I hate cancer! However, looking back on past events, I know it may sound weird to say, but I have received some more than one gift from cancer. Gifts that I won’t ever give back.
If you know my story, you know that I lost my husband to cancer. It was a very difficult time in my life and a time I wouldn’t care to live over. I consider myself the survivor. I am the one that was left behind when cancer was gone and I am the one left to learn from the mistakes of the past and to make the future better.
Value Is A Gift From Cancer
Learning that life is fragile and very precious is a gift from cancer. Each and every breath is a gift that should not be taken for granted because tomorrow is not guaranteed. I have learned to focus on the things that are important such as relationships.
We need to start forgiving and mending relationships. If I lost someone close to me today, I wouldn’t want to forever remember our last fight and my hurtful words about something that would no longer seem important. I now look back at things that my husband had done that angered me and very few of them were really that important. I was caught up in life, in having things my way, in having stuff etc and I forgot to cherish every moment with him.
On the day that he died, there wasn’t anything I wouldn’t have given up to have him healthy, alive and mine forever. In the days since he left me, I haven’t thought about the things he did that bothered me. Instead, I think about the ways he loved me. I remember the way he looked at me, held me, put me first, adored me and protected me. The negative things that I’ve remembered are MY unpleasant actions and words. I wish I had shown more love and less of my bad side.
I prefer to remember the good memories of us and I wish I had made more of them. But that being said, this gift has helped me be a better person to others. I focus on people, on their feelings and on making them feel that they matter. I am making memories with those that are still with me.
Life Is A Gift From Cancer
Cancer taught me to live and it’s a gift from cancer that I am still perfecting. In my previous life, everyday was the same…get up, work, eat, sleep and do it over again. Fun was reserved for special occasions and vacations. I’m not that girl any longer.
I have turned over a new leaf and I’m living a fuller life. I accept more invitations, take more vacations, spend more time with those I love, go to movies by myself, spend time in nature and focus on forming healthy habits. When my nephews spend the night with me, I make a special night that is all about them. I am making memories, laughing, playing and having fun.
To me those things are what life is all about. It’s not about lots of money, designer purses, flashy cars and big houses. It’s about doing more of the things that make me happy. Life is about doing, loving and being. On my last days on earth, I feel confident that I will remember the great trips, amazing adventures and great loves. I won’t wish I had bought more things or stayed home more.
My Gift To You
There are certainly a few more gifts from cancer but these two are the most profoundly life changing. Now don’t get me wrong…I miss my love every moment of every day, but I refuse to dwell on past disappointments. I’m thankful everyday for the lessons I have learned from cancer. I am happier and a better person because of them.
Gifts come in all shapes and sizes. Today I hope my gift to you is the simple reminder that people are precious. They can be taken from us unexpectedly at any moment so cherish them with all your heart. And don’t forget to live. Form relationships, laugh, love, go on trips, take adventures and have more fun!